there’s no mystery in history
only in the betweens of here and now
waves of wishes, reminiscence of kisses
and the ache for more and once again
when i’m here and there, you’re gone, you're gone
in a way, away, each day
and if i was to simply disappear,
in the way the wise ones say
my love, you’d be here with me
a once sailed see
premises and promises whispered
season's change, reasons change
and whispers spin to rise
between the he and his troubled she
rising high, changing tides
a foreboding cloud settles over a heart once proud
upon a majestic and once sailed see
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the reconstruction
as each day passes, a little piece
the memory of you, fades away.
the flower blossomed, vivid, that day
wilts to seed anew, and after the winter,
black and white, long the night,
warm winds carry cool rain
to bring to light, new colors on petals soft
the sweetness of another you.
flatland love lost,
lingering as
he twists his way
up canyon roads, west
chasing a sun running,
retreating, away from the day
it rose upon, flatland love
morning light, when all was right
connected in disconnect
sharing tears, miles away
in the space reserved
for souls and ghosts
one twisting, lying on her side
the other, up canyon roads
the stones we carry
into age and wisdom
some shiny, beautiful.
memories, like fingerprints
no two, the same
the stones we carry
into age and wisdom
fear and regret
all jagged, heavy to bear
recollection; the collection
the weight of wisdom and worry
the she and he,
carved a space to place
each stone dow
le cour d'elephants by Hyperionic-Xmissions, literature
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le cour d'elephants
(in the universe, of souls and ghosts
love gives way, to love
fear gives way, to fear
and hope, a curious combination
of the two)
heavy rains, on sunshine hearts
and the memories made on, then, the longest day
night fell, hearts swelled, and into each other
they fell
fell
fell
when smiles gave way to heavy heads
and the night winds cooled day to grey
her breath lengthened, deepened, still
he whispered, the only sound, for miles
and miles and miles away
to his lips, it came, before brain and heart
don't fall, don't sleep, don't drift away
i'll miss you so, i'll miss you so
heavier, her head, into his chest
one kiss, small smile, then fl
long, the distance
only wonder fills the gap
building truths, thatched with doubt
the sight, a touch, her whisper falling
softly on winter white
earthquakes, cross the distance
clutching photographs found
the makings of, the wonder of
long light morning shadows falling
softly on winter white
ten, a thousand points
at night, her light
staring up, into
her sky
each, smile; laugh
spotted, plotted
staring up, into
her sky
--
constellate, my andromeda
this love, resigned
in a constellation designed
to be the she i need to see
convinced to be correct,
her points i connect
to skywrite this love,
tonight
there’s no mystery in history
only in the betweens of here and now
waves of wishes, reminiscence of kisses
and the ache for more and once again
when i’m here and there, you’re gone, you're gone
in a way, away, each day
and if i was to simply disappear,
in the way the wise ones say
my love, you’d be here with me
a once sailed see
premises and promises whispered
season's change, reasons change
and whispers spin to rise
between the he and his troubled she
rising high, changing tides
a foreboding cloud settles over a heart once proud
upon a majestic and once sailed see
the reconstruction by Hyperionic-Xmissions, literature
Literature
the reconstruction
as each day passes, a little piece
the memory of you, fades away.
the flower blossomed, vivid, that day
wilts to seed anew, and after the winter,
black and white, long the night,
warm winds carry cool rain
to bring to light, new colors on petals soft
the sweetness of another you.
flatland love lost,
lingering as
he twists his way
up canyon roads, west
chasing a sun running,
retreating, away from the day
it rose upon, flatland love
morning light, when all was right
connected in disconnect
sharing tears, miles away
in the space reserved
for souls and ghosts
one twisting, lying on her side
the other, up canyon roads
the stones we carry
into age and wisdom
some shiny, beautiful.
memories, like fingerprints
no two, the same
the stones we carry
into age and wisdom
fear and regret
all jagged, heavy to bear
recollection; the collection
the weight of wisdom and worry
the she and he,
carved a space to place
each stone dow
le cour d'elephants by Hyperionic-Xmissions, literature
Literature
le cour d'elephants
(in the universe, of souls and ghosts
love gives way, to love
fear gives way, to fear
and hope, a curious combination
of the two)
heavy rains, on sunshine hearts
and the memories made on, then, the longest day
night fell, hearts swelled, and into each other
they fell
fell
fell
when smiles gave way to heavy heads
and the night winds cooled day to grey
her breath lengthened, deepened, still
he whispered, the only sound, for miles
and miles and miles away
to his lips, it came, before brain and heart
don't fall, don't sleep, don't drift away
i'll miss you so, i'll miss you so
heavier, her head, into his chest
one kiss, small smile, then fl
long, the distance
only wonder fills the gap
building truths, thatched with doubt
the sight, a touch, her whisper falling
softly on winter white
earthquakes, cross the distance
clutching photographs found
the makings of, the wonder of
long light morning shadows falling
softly on winter white
ten, a thousand points
at night, her light
staring up, into
her sky
each, smile; laugh
spotted, plotted
staring up, into
her sky
--
constellate, my andromeda
this love, resigned
in a constellation designed
to be the she i need to see
convinced to be correct,
her points i connect
to skywrite this love,
tonight
the blue light of the bus shelter summons the ghosts inside you.
the near biblical sound of snow; sleeping rain, shifting on the sidewalk.
we take the bus when we want to drink
or when we want to experience new people.
we take the longest route home
and watch the snow fall
and the people talk.
(grace me with a small plant that i can tell to grow
and i’ll be happier than with a thousand dollars in a card.)
and i take the bus to have silence and solace.
gift me with a last-line bus ride at one in the morning
and i’ll spill all my secrets.
i’ll write poems about the snow and be grateful.
listen to how an alone man sighs
yes, i am a creature of the sea,
it's why the sunset follows me.
oh dear, my dear, what you must know;
the place i will drown is the land,
but no dear no, not ever in the undertow.
yes, the land has books and botany and bees,
but i will only find home, find solace, by the sea.
you were occult to me,
the fine line drawn between chemistry and fiction.
because you read blindly,
about how i believe in science, not god,
and then the fog clears your head.
i believe in the things i read,
blindly.
you were occult to me.
you made me blind to what i read.
i read the curving of your neck,
the incandescent swoon of every curse you put on me.
the things i read don’t exist anymore,
they are past
they are past
they are past
it is the cult of you,
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postcard XVIII
i watched a woman throw a man's hand
from hers out of frustration today, and it reminded
me of when it all fell apart for us. i remember
the look on her face when she decided that i
was not to be remembered. and i remember
not wanting to let go. since then i have been
running, trying to remember to forget that
she made me into a monster in her head.
because the real me, the truth that got too close,
had been too much to be forgotten. every day,
i put more miles between us. every day,
miles closer to the opposite and equal.
action begets reaction, and i am, every day,
moving east and the poet in me
wants to tell you that i am pushing
towards new sunrises, away
from old horizons, or finding
new beginnings. the spirit in me
knows that i'm not. i am running away,
and i've packed most of what i need, though
i've left room for a few regrets. cycling
through i think back to all of the things i
wish i had never said to you. each one
had meaning, reason and just
cause except i'm sorry.
relative unknowns pass with nary a glance
as i hurriedly stir lump on top of lump into my tea.
my pencil dulls as i scrawl line after line,
writing your wrongs, pausing only to look around
to find something familiar in this sea of strangers.
i swore it would be different here,
convinced that i would find answers.
here, the sun and moon still dance
across my wayward footsteps and
since i left you leaving me
all i've come to learn is that
i had not been living a lie,
only part of the truth
for the first time in as
long as i can remember,
i awoke without you on my mind.
the sun shined brighter than
usual, and then i remembered
how much you loved that.
i sweat my way through this foreign
city looking for someone like you.
when today spun into yesterday i
found myself a hotel shower
and could not scrub away
the sin in missing you...
i awoke this morning to workers
using pickaxes to tear up the street
below my window and it reminded me
exactly how far away i am from that morning
i awoke to the sound of jackhammers
a kissed your forehead while you slept
through the chaos. i counted 17 strands
of errant hairs on your hairline and said
goodbye.
traveling or not...i have been on
this epic quest searching for "her"
well aware that until i have
finally figured out who i am,
i will not find what i seek...
somehow, i can't stop trying...
her secrets fell
like raindrops on leaves
and desire rumbled
like thunder in the distance
as she whispered
through white lilies and lace
trust me
just me, trust me
though i already did
i begged for reasons
and reasons and reasons more
like thunder in the distance
as she whispered
through white lilies and lace
(i took four northbound flights
to gaze upon her northern lights
only to close my eyes
and breathe in her whisper)
hi everybody.
so, in case you haven't heard, boulder, where i live, has been battling a very serious and very large wildfire just outside of city limits since monday. we seem to have a good handle on it now, but it has been a harrowing week.
last night, the winds shifted and brought a very serious threat of fire to the city limits and a portion of the city, a part i happen to reside in, was put on standby for evacuation. an area encompassing thousands of homes, businesses, hospitals, and schools with a population of ~12,000 people. yes, harrowing.
roughly about 9:30pm the winds picked up and the smoke began to make its way into the city
so, thanks to likeliquid (https://www.deviantart.com/likeliquid) and Kaz-D (https://www.deviantart.com/kaz-d) i was honored with my first ever (!) DD a few weeks ago for this:
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likeliquid (https://www.deviantart.com/likeliquid) suggested the piece and i am so unbelievably honored and humbled by the kindness and consideration.
i've only now caught up and thanked everyone for the favs and comments. it was a wonderfully exhausting task! took a little while longer because dA locks you out from commenting after you have commented on ~50 or so different deviant's pages. the system thinks you are a spammer. how do all of you popular and famous deviants get around this?!
i also picked up a bunch of new watchers. hi, new fri
and the annual boulder exodus has begun. only this time, there is a larger sense of loss. but like the seeds that germinate only after a forest fire, there is now only room to grow. the muse has left, all of her baggage in tow, and she packed my insecurities deep inside her trunk. her panacean visage, twisted this sagacious fool and retreated back to safety. leaving only the shell of a man and the scar tissue of a life believed to be well-lived.
(there are three things in life that should never get broken; toys, hearts and promises...i still have my toys.)
my best friend is off to travel the world leaving me with memories and the conflict b